I'm at work right now, tired as hell and bored out of my mind. I can't wait til my day off tomorrow. All I can picture is a nice comfortable bed to sleep on. Gosh I need to stop staying up so late. It's funny because I kept my puppy up so late last night that when I left for work this morning he was still knocked out. Usually he's awake at the break of dawn. Poor baby, he's spoiled rotten. On another note, my boyfriend and I made amends with each other.

" Looks like somebody needs a tan "

Sometimes it feels like no one is listening to me. Frustrated and angry, I tend to say a lot of things I don't really mean. It's kinda fucked up when you feel like shit inside all the time and no one really understands you. Perhaps I don't open up enough to people or perhaps it's not worth it in the end. I believe that the more you give yourself away, the easier it is for someone to use your own emotions against you. At times I don't even feel like I understand myself, let alone anyone else. I know I hurt some of the people that's really close to me and I'm terribly sorry, but I haven't felt like myself in a long time. My boyfriend and I have been together for almost three years now and he still can't figure me out. Except for the fact that I'm stubborn and hard headed. Lately, we haven't been seeing eye to eye and it's mostly my fault, but I hate to admit it. I can't express my sense of appreciation for him enough but it's there, hidden behind the fighting and bickering, I know I can't live without him. Forgiveness just needs a little time, hopefully by tomorrow. If not, I shall seek comfort in my other baby.... my puppy Napoleon of course! I loooove him to death, second to Ha of course!

" Aren't I innocent....NOT "

" I so own these people "

" I am king of the world "

" Hey where did everybody go "